woman as healer

was that really me who wrote those earlier posts? i read them today after forgetting they even existed. where has my mind been lately that everything seems disjointed?

last night i went, pensive and reluctant as i was, to a social event. there, a man began talking to me about the powerful role of feminine energy in the universe. he spoke to me of woman's ability (and duty) to heal. i was distracted by things unworthy of my attention, so only heard two-thirds of what he said. it was when he said this that all distractions froze so i could hear him: "...that's why so many of our greatest women, our greatest healers, get involved with the most careless, aggressive, 'ugly' men... because they are drawn together so that the man can be healed and the woman can heal..." i thought about it for a moment. yes, i had done that. but had the man become healed? i'm not so sure. doesn't he have the final say so? women have been deceived for far too long, thinking their love can change a man... (perhaps that is how we misinterpret this healing thing?). he told me he recognized this in me. i responded by saying "but to be a healer means also to turn one's healing energies onto oneself. if i am in a state of sickness, how can i then heal others?" and he told me that when we heal, we take the other's pain and dirt and carry it on our own backs, and that if we forget to take time to cleanse that (thus healing ourselves) then we will carry too strong of a burden and become ineffective for others.

the night ended with him saying "i'm sorry, i don't even know how any of that came up or why i felt compelled to say it to you."
and me saying, "woman is a natural healer indeed, but men carry that energy too... and that is what you have been for me tonight."